I can't imagine how it must feel to dedicate your whole life to this man...to make him your world...to promise 'til death do us part...to breathe his every good and bad...to go through the worse of the worse and triumphantly succeed each battle together...when a man who loved you starts loving another woman. Oh God, how do you be the light in this kind of situation? God, how do you start the pain from growing deeper by the minute, the hour, and the day?
I've been troubled for weeks and my heart constantly and consistently prays for her and them. I can't imagine being in their shoe. I often question how I can be a Christian in moments like this when emotions are tested to the limit and love is pushed to edge. How do you remain modest? How do you remain calm? How do you keep yourself from strangling the other to death? Most importantly, how can you continue to love that betrayer and stop hurting from this betrayal, from this pain? I don't know. I don't have the answers to any of these questions. I often ask my husband these things and neither does he know what to say in circumstances like this.
We were in church this Sunday and as I observed from far away.... something just clicked about this situation. In light of this pain, God will receive all the glory. With that understanding, I felt a sense of relief in my heart. It's almost like I can breathe again and I think she'll be alright. Scarred, but she'll be alright.
Just some thoughts floating through my head that I needed to share.
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