2013 in Review

Note: I wrote this back in January and apparently forgotten to post it. Sorry.

I'm thankful for the little snow that Georgia has experienced today. I know it sounds rather silly that I'm rejoicing while my families up in WI/MN loathe this kind of weather but a snow day in Georgia is the equivalent of a rest day for us. Who isn't thankful for a rest day? I love the feeling of excitement as I sit there quietly at my desk impatiently waiting while my heart is filled with glee just because I know that snow day means an early release from work. Who am I kidding? I'm always a kid... at heart. lol

Anyway, I've been meaning to update for the longest but 2013 took the best of me. I've lost the joy in blogging. Well, I've lost the joy in a lot of things. Was 2013 really that bad? Whew! I can't say that it's bad per se, but it has definitely taken a toll on my life and more less my body. I've gotten a lot more gray hair and hair loss is certainly an issue now. My patience was tested over and over again and 3/4 of the time I know that I've failed. I used to think that I'm a good person and always striving to see the best in everyone I've come across. 2013 really showed me who I am... I'm pretty ugly. The thoughts in my head...the feelings in my heart... sometimes I just want to run far far away like Jonah. In 2013 I even questioned God why He put me where I'm at. Is this of my doing or is this a part of God's plan? What does all this mean? Why me? If life was a game then I quit. Yes, 2013 was certainly something... In all this bad, something good did come out of it. Many many years ago, a seed was planted. In 2013, that seed decided that it was time to grow. It sprouted and it grew... I've lost much, but I've also gained in different areas. I know sometimes the bad seems to outweigh the good, but I must admit that this is the one time that I'm glad to experience all these miseries for the sake of this little seed. Oh Lord, help me to be more patient and help me to be consistent in watering this plant for your glory.

In 2013, I've learned so much about myself. I have a very stubborn heart. I am very impatient. For instance, when I ask for something I want it done there and then. Not later, not in a minute. I am inconsistent in everything I do, which is not a good trait to have at all as it translates to me being unreliable. I have to work 10x as hard to just be reliable and yes, it really takes a toll on me as sad as that may sound. I like my space, my peace and quiet. I like me time. I don't like to be told what to do unless I ask for it. It's easy to get on my nerves---my husband knows this and he does so just to get to me. There's a lot of other bad things about me. It's funny because I used to think that I was the opposite of everything I just mentioned above. I don't know if I used to be the opposite of all that's listed above and over time I slowly changed or if this is really who I am and I just never realized it. One thing remains true. I really love passionately and whole-heartedly. My husband doesn't really understand this as we speak different love languages. I'm affectionate and he's not. I'm romantic and he's not. I'm everything he's not. Again, he's everything I'm not. He's got some really good qualities that I can only dream that I possessed. He's wonderful in ways that I can't fathom. I guess this is why we were brought together. We can bring the best out of each other and yet again, we bring the worst out of one another. :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D 

There was something I wanted to jot down but.... I forget. Next time... lol On another note...If you ever come across this post, would you forgive me? Yes, I forgive you.