I Like Sad Songs

I know, I'm so lame....but you know what? Somehow, sometimes, I feel like the only way to heal is to let it all out. Sometimes I really have to force myself to cry because when I should cry, I don't and when I shouldn't cry, I do. For instance, when I got robbed those five times, I should've done some crying. I didn't. Instead, I braved it out and now I'm forever having nightmares about bad guys in black masks. When those stupid little boys broke my heart way back when, I didn't cry until many, many months later. God knew those tears healed in so many ways. When my husband's being a meanie, taking revenge doesn't help. Rather, I cry and it heals me. Maybe this is why I like sad songs, because they make me cry and tears have a way of easing my frustrated heart.

Speaking of sad songs, I'm listening to "See You Again" by Carrie Underwood. Though it's quite an upbeat song, it's got this very bitter-sweet message and I can't help but feel a little melodramatic! I first heard this song on my way home from work while the sun was just beginning to set and on the horizon was nothing but an orange painting of God's infinite beauty. I had quite a mix feeling at that moment, I must admit. I couldn't tell if I was happy or sad. I believe I was somewhere in between because while the scenery sets the mood, the song provides a drop of hope--- 'til I see you again.