While I was sitting in the parking lot of my first job and waiting for the clock to strike the hour to start my first day at my current job, I couldn't help but wonder what a coincidence this all was! Remembering the past while glaring into the future, I'm able to embrace the strength and courage I've incurred over the past decade. A few seconds right before I was able to come to a realization of all the blessings the good Lord has give unto me, all the nervousness was fluttering through me and I could have sworn that I wanted to hold my breath and just die. Well, to be honest, it wasn't a few seconds right before. I wanted to flat out die for the first thirty minutes before I remembered the significance of this particular place in which I had parked. Well, to be even more frank, I've never been comfortable with the idea of being the "new guy". Being new makes me feel lame because you pretty much are lame. LOL!!! Plus, you don't know anyone so it makes you more lame. To make matters worst, you don't know anything!!! I suppose we all have to be new at some point. Oh, the joy of learning. I love it, don't get me wrong, I just don't want to keep feeling "lame" whilst I learn. LOL!!!
I think I may have strained my back a little with all that intense sitting that I did. I know, right, how can anyone strain their back from "sitting"? I mean, all my previous jobs consists of nothing, but sitting and I was just fine. Maybe this is a result of some weight gain. I need to lose it those extra pounds! Speaking of weight loss, I have approximately four months. I need to up my game now! Anyway, hopefully day #2 will turn out better as far as my back is concern. Traffic was not as bad as I had imagined. I think this is doable, but who knows how long until I changed my mind on this matter.
Oh, I have great news! Well, this is great news to me. My husband and I decided that I should probably not go to school for a very long while and I am honestly relieved! I think I want to make a living with my current degree until further notice. We realize that we can't keep putting ourselves in debt and by the time I'm done with this new degree, I will be nose deep in debt and I just don't know how I can live having that debt on my shoulders. Besides, I'm already waist deep! However, school will always be there should I want to return. It was a hard decision on my behalf, but I can't tell you how good it feels to lift this burden off my shoulders! I no longer need to study and do papers and homeworks! Yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss! :) I can just concentrate on work and for right now, this feels good! I'm so relieved!!!!!
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