“In the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures. For in the dew of little things, does the heart find its morning and is refreshed.” ―
Must be the way Richard looked at Monica. Must be the way she reacts to him. It's their chemistry. I don't know why I'm hearing Richard's toast for the first time. But I think I feel sad. For them. Or for me. I don't know. I'm happy though. I think this quote triggered something in me. I wish Monica and Richard would last, but as I've gotten older, I realized they could not. Their relationship is the reason why Chandler gets to shine. Then, it hit me. My past exist so my husband can shine. Jamy shines very brightly, especially over the past Christmas holiday season when he caught covid. I was scared, but in the midst of his suffering, it made me realized the depth of my love for this man. You don't know how much you love someone until you feel the hours slipping away. As Kahlil Gibran says it best, "Love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation." I never want to go through anything like this again, but I am glad that my husband and I still have life today. How very intricately designed we are, all this so that we can help others shine. Afterall, life was never about us. It is always about others. I was reminded of that when I held my husband in my arms and we both cried to God to rescue us. We talked about holding on, about our life and our babies that are to come and for a slight second, we loved this life we dreamed of, but we loved each other more and in that moment, it was perfect. Just two lovers crying out to God because we both knew we needed a Savior. Now that's beautiful and that's the sweetness of true friendship.
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