Still

It has been a very long time. Life has been very busy and I've been on the go for the most part. Life has been an uproar of nothing but changes and in the midst of all this craziness, today, I am reminded to be still. To be still and know that [He] is God (Psalms 46:10). I find so much contentment in this verse. With that, my husband and I had to assume the role of parents for a few weeks to our pre-teen nieces and nephew. It definitely opened my eyes to the possibility of parenthood someday. I thought about how wonderful of a father my husband would be and how I won't be half bad at this mom thing. It also reminded me of how blessed I've been to have lived and received so much joy in my singlehood, having spend majority of my time with my husband and making simple memories for the long run. I think sometimes it's so easy to get caught up in the greener grass algorithm, while lacking the appreciation for the effort it takes to get there. These past few weeks I've had to remind myself to step back and really look at the bigger picture. Imperfect we are, but I am so pleased knowing that God is holding us together and protecting us despite the whirlwind happening around us. God, You are truly good. May we continue to seek You, trust You and follow You. May we learn to be still and know who we are and whose we are when life gets too crazy. 

Understanding that we are not promised tomorrow, I can't help but think about all those who's gone before us. My father used to always say that people are "racing to enter Heaven" when there's been too many deaths. With covid, cancer, other sickness and diseases, this has been a big race. A whole generation gone! It's truly the end of an era. It's so bitter-sweet. I rejoice knowing that everyone has been called home to our Lord, but I will miss their presence here on this earth. Only a little while longer and we'll be together again. On that note, I recently purchased an at home laser hair removal kit. It sat on my shelf for well over a month before I found the courage to take that first zap. When I finally was able to zap myself, I realized it wasn't half bad. I imagine death to be like this. I can't imagine losing anyone close and dear to me. Often, I hope I would leave this earth first, but I know God has His time so I will brace myself for when the time comes and I will remind myself that it's all very temporary because in just a little bit, we will be together again. As you can imagine, I've been giving myself these talks because boy, there has been so many deaths and funerals lately. 

Taking advantage of the times we have left together, my family and I took a beach trip to PCB. We didn't do much but oh, how it was so fun and memorable! The children gave us so much laughter and provided us with pure joy. There's nothing quite like it. I look forward to the day when I can do mini beach trips with my own little family. That certainly will be one for the books just as it was for this family beach trip. It was mom and dad's first time to the beach and it seemed like they had a blast. I was also able to see my sister and her little family, which was always a treat. 

In other news, the holidays are coming and I am ecstatic! Autumn is truly upon us as I found myself contemplating whether or not to turn on the heater this morning. Currently, it's 62 degrees and sunny. For the first time in a long time, the holidays will be different because I have my own place. This means I get to decorate. ahaha but more importantly, we're all here and healthy. That's worth celebrating in all the ways we know how! In all this mess though, let's remember to take a moment when needed and simply be still.